Please stop being hormonal. Whatever happens, happens. Maybe it's supposed to happen, and maybe it's chance. Who knows really. The point I'm trying to make here is that you shouldn't try to control it. Just relax, breathe, and stop spazzing.
It hasn't happened yet. Maybe what your dreading won't come about. Just please try to have fun and forget about it.
Just be yourself. Hope for the best. Get over it.
Oh, and pray.
Peace and Love
Your dear friend,